Failed love: What most call it.

Things never go as planned,and that's the beauty of life it's unexpected.

Love is something that you have to work at everyday,

it's not for lazy people.If you fail to work at it,

then you lose it maybe not instantly,but slowly.

In the beginning it was so pure and perfect,

things went just as they should,

suddenly we hit a rough patch,

maybe i could've done something to prevent

it,but it doesn't excuse your harsh actions.

You see when i make mistakes i own up to

them,so why is it that you try to flip

the blame on me?You are not a perfect

being,nor am i.We seemed to move forward

and got things back somewhat the way they were,

but not everyone was so forgiving,you scarred me.

I whole heartedly forgave you but i never forgot.

And then you left...when you left,it was

one of the hardest things i ever had to do,

to tell my one lover "see you later",we

promised never to say "good-bye",

because "good-bye" seemed like it

meant "bye" for forever.

Somewhere during that time things shifted

drastically,i felt you changing,and i tried

my hardest to accept that people change

and you would always have that southern

sweetness,and innocence i fell in love with.

Time passed and things got worse.

And our love felt like it was coming to an

end,you decided to end it.

This was the first time i felt such a pain

in my heart,it was as if a knife was

stabbed and twisted deep in it,repeatedly.

We tried our best to be just friends but that was

something we never mastered,we never learned

how to be just friends,after loving one another the

way we did.Maybe that was the way it was meant to be,

maybe we weren't supposed to be just friends.

So we gave it another go and it seemed

to be as good as ever.And shortly we had a falling

out,but we were no stranger to this process.

After a while it became tiring and it was over.

Then again we were inseparable,and gave it a go.

Then the unthinkable came,you hurt me

in a way that i could never express to you.

You the one i trusted with everything,

stabbed me in the heart and burned the knife

while it was in there,the news i received...

it was unbelievable,the one who i had

loved for so long,my best friend and who i

thought was my ride or die,lied and had

other plans,but instead of sticking to the honesty

and openness we promised to always have with each

other you chose to deceive and treat me as

if i broke your heart or was some girl who

meant nothing to you.suddenly i realized that

you couldn't have loved me and never did love me,

or at some point you stopped,and neglected to tell me.

And reality set in that this is it,forever and ever,

you will never be mine,and i will never be yours because i could

never ever trust you the way i used to.

You were now a liar,and just like every other

guy,who you swore wasn't you,you were

in fact worse than all the others.

And so they say "The hottest love has the coldest end."

This is indeed true,and sad because what i

thought was my fairytale and prince charming

wasn't and he was never mine to have.

So i told myself let him go,forgive and move on

but don't forget,never forget the wrong he has

done to you,because it is wisdom for future

relationships.One day i will find my prince

charming and he will be everything you're not.

Until then i'm living life,without the stresses of

a relationship.We had it all for a moment

and then we lost it..then you lost it,you threw it away...
you let go and tried to hold on at the same
time,but now i am letting go,
and i will no longer hold on to what is not meant

to be.So good-bye my once lover,good-bye

my once friend,good-bye forever.

This is not a failed love because it was once love,

it was love to me and it just didn't work out,

i think of it as an attempted love that didn't

quite finish it's book.